it's like -- no matter what, i'll always have fucking bitch ass friends who are probably only pretending to give a damn about me.

no joke, every single person i ever gave a shit about isn't even around anymore.

and i could REALLY fucking trash some people right now, buddy, let me fucking tell you.

i hate feeling like i'm walking on eggshells. but the thing i hate more than that is the fact that when something good happens to me, no one is fucking happy BUT me.

i mean, this is getting to the point where its fucking getting ridiculous. i'm sick of it. i'm sick of life, love, friends, lies.

i just hope i'm not as worthless as you make me feel.

because i'm too far gone and i dont know if i can turn it around.